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Only an Illusion

July 4, 2008 at 11:32 pm | In Uncategorized | 8 Comments
Tags: Confusion, Dream, Hope, People, Wishful Thinking

Two nights ago, I had a dream. I was somewhere abroad, in Denmark perhaps. In my dream, I was in Shan’s apartment, alone with him.

Shan is a friend I met online and have been in touch with for many months. Well, many months barring the last one. My first mentions of him go back to the “French Conquests” posts, right when I started the blog.

We had a bit of a fallout some time ago, and neither has resumed normal conversation since. I feel horrid that I haven’t. He was supposed to come into town on the same day as I was leaving for where I am now, so we were supposed to miss each other. As things would have it, my course was delayed by 5 days, which gave us ample time to meet, but we weren’t on the best terms. I did let him know that I was still in town, on an occasion that he initiated conversation from his home, but things did not pick up to the extent that we could cement another meet. I regret it now, knowing that he probably won’t be in town again till at least the end of the year. Shan is a gem of a person, but he’s not what I’d call perfect. I don’t make the best conversation with him, in spite of all my efforts, even though he’s calling me over ISD. We don’t seem to want the same things in life. He doesn’t seem half as interested to take care of his looks a bit, even for me.

Anyhow, returning to the dream… I was with him, in Denmark, which is where he was living. He doesn’t live in Denmark, but such facts in my dreams are skewed.

I sat in his apartment, and he lay with his head on my lap. In the dream, he looked young and energetic, remotely similar to his actual appearance. I said to him, “You know, you don’t look half that bad right now! You’re not photographed right! Let me take a picture of you…”

I then proceeded to click him with my phone, as he just smiled back. Really, he had the cutest features in that dream. Before I could click, I awoke. Even if I had succeeded, I scarcely believe I would’ve found the pic in my phone once I was awake.

I cannot recall the significance of the dream. It seems to have clear lessons to teach, or revelations to make, but none appear out of the ordinary; nothing is blatantly clear.

All I wish for is that I was in Denmark with Shan, his head on my lap, looking up at me. And of course, that he looked as cute as he did in my dream

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Footnote

5 substantial posts (and 1 tribute-of-sorts) in a 24-hour period. I wonder if I’m eligible for an award. An award not for insanity or compulsive disorder, that is!

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ok… no way am i gonna comment on ALL 5-odd posts. lol. just dat philadelphia is an amazing movie, yes. and ure danish/french guy sounds nice.

Comment by closetalk — July 5, 2008 #

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and i thought u were into fat, semi-older men ..

*feels burden of rejection*

also, because you equally compulsive readers who have nothin better to do than write stupid sleep-inducing comments (talkin bout myself only) on your blog ….

so don’t worry ….

Comment by Rambunctious WhipperSnapper — July 5, 2008 #

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@closetalk
I’d be damned if anyone even reads half the posts I wrote, let alone comment on them !

RambWS
I am into semi-older men, yes
But you can continue feeling the burden of rejection. Alternatively, you can adopt a good low-calorie diet plan.

Lol! Yes, I count on those such as you to give me some occupation in my free time, and I enjoy it immensely! Thanks

Comment by unsungpsalm — July 5, 2008 #

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No, I will continue my search for someone who has a thing for fat guys with no personality? Maybe I’ll get points for my sass?

I mean is asking for someone who looks like a greek god and is into boring, unfunny big guys asking for too much?

Comment by Rambunctious WhipperSnapper — July 5, 2008 #

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Boring, unfunny you are not. Drama-Queen you are.
Which makes me wonder if you’re fat at all… or is it just another gross exaggeration like all others…

Comment by unsungpsalm — July 5, 2008 #

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hehehe badhayi ho dream dekhne par….

And i thought the fling was over long time ago *wonder*

Comment by Dark Knight — July 7, 2008 #

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And about award, hmmm you will get vote from me (if they consider enough to keep me as jury lol )

Comment by Dark Knight — July 7, 2008 #

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When i click on ur may archives, i’m not finding this French conquest post….only that sillhouets post..i’m hating WordPress more and more

Comment by flygye12 — July 12, 2008 #

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